Sunday, October 28, 2012

We Are More Than Our Physical Bodies

What keeps us from our highest state of "Being"?  The common verb which becomes the ultimate noun

I believe, from my own contemplation and studies over the years, it is the portion of our psyche shaped by and focused on the illusions of the physical world.   These illusions are passed to us from a collective preconditioned mode of thought that we acquire in infancy.  

The search for "The Self" is manifold and reaches past the physical brain.  A magnificent organ, wired to respond and process stimuli.

The Self is not the human body.  Humans are not just a physical body wired wondrously to the organs and systems within.

The physical body is a finely constructed vehicle to aid The Self while navigating through the physical world.  The Self is both connected to the physical body and it is remote.  

Idealized restrictions of thought shaped by our preconditioning have confined the totality of humans to a physical body.  

We are more than that.

Humankind has manifested all manner of things, even with these self imposed restrictions.

Developing systems of reaching past the confines of precondtioned and reflexive thought patterns.
Through religion and systems of ritualized seeking into the unknown and unseen.  Delving into the mysteries of life through seemingly hidden compartments of the human body and modes of stylized thought patterns.

These are not hidden compartments.  In truth, they are but obscured and forgotten pathways.  Once found they become more accessible and far reaching.  

And then we discover, we are more than our physical bodies.  The common verb becomes the Ultimate Noun. 


Sunday, October 21, 2012

Beautiful Memories of Magical Moments

Afternoon sun in late fall and the chilled breezes pulls my mind to cherished Magical Moments.

 The rays of sun pouring through the  window with soft meditation music in the background.  Sitting with friends at a table loaded with candles, the aroma of incense in the air around us.  Tarot cards, pendulums and crystals strewn across the table.

Deep conversations about the secrets of life.  The soothing and satisfying atmosphere created by giving each other Reiki or other energy healings.  The afternoon seems endless and we are transported to a place that does not mark time.  We are so into the experience of merging our energies and engaging each other in deep heart to heart conversations and our experiences.  The "outside" world and all the concerns that go along with it are miles away.  We are suspended in a magnificent cocoon where time has no meaning and we are feeling  our own magic.  It is profound.  

I miss this and yearn for an opportunity to be with them again.   It lives powerfully  in my mind and my memories.  
I hold these sisters of my heart very deeply  inside me.  I can close my eyes and transport myself back to that time , the imprint of it was so significant and powerful in my life.  It was the first time I express something very vital to me, my secret self.  Without fear of shock, reprisal and disapproval.  Just acceptance.  It led me to want to know this part of myself even more in a deeper way.  It helped me keep sight of my most meaningful path, no matter what happened to me along the way.  I am so grateful.


Root of the Matter, Past lives and Other Issues


The clearing and cleansing the energy centers of my body has led me to the focus and further study on the root chakra.  This is an area that I have only given peripheral attention to.  My main focus was on the upper energy centers, mainly the heart center.

As I contemplate the energy centers in a deeper way, I realize that all of them are very important for the health and well being of all of my "bodies".  The root is no less valuable.  My work with processing emotion, working with my ego/emotions and letting go of repressed pass issues that keep roiling up from inside of me has proven this time and time again.  So this is where I place my attention now.  The root chakra.

I wonder sometimes if my root chakra does not hold some of my old "scrabbling for security" patterns.  I realize  grappling around frantically  to set up things externally to ensure I feel "secure" is futile.  And now in realizing that true security comes from within not external circumstances, I am working with my root to "uproot" those old patterns.

The thing about setting up external factors to ensure security is impossible because anything can upset my sense of security.  I have no control of external issues.  I do have some control in how I perceive issues, situations and events.

How I perceive "security" lies in my root chakra.  As I continue my observations into my own reflexive emotional patterns, I can "see" how my root is involved.

This is a remarkable cycle I am going through right now.  I can sense my own shifting.  It is unsettling emotionally and physically but the subtle yet persistent sense of correctness grows within me.

I am having flashes of scenes and events.  Some while I am sleeping and some while I am awake.  I have never really delved into my past lives but I believe I am seeing some of them.  Maybe cycles of them that are pertinent to where I am right now.

My life force energy is much stronger now.  The force of it running through me is palpable.

So much is happening because I made a decision that I no longer wanted to react reflexively to every situation and event.  I made my desire known that I no longer wanted to shape my life and personality around the stories I adopt to define me.  I want to be free of that.  Free to be.



Friday, October 19, 2012

Continued Observations about Situations Becoming Internalized Personal and Emotional Issues

Days have gone by and I continue to observe as honestly and objectively as possible how I handle the myriad of situations that arise in life.  My curiosity is really stirred up by this.  A thread I want to keep following.

With the help of "My Inner Guidance" I have devised a rough outline of questions to ask myself when I find myself tangled personally and emotionally into another situation.

Now I realize that some situations are unavoidably going to be personally emotional .  But many I can see are not necessary nor does it help the situation at all.  But for the most part, I believe this reflexive pattern can be changed.  In fact, in just a few days I have noticed that by just being aware and mindful of my inclination to do this, has caused a great reduction of this proclivity.

A new level of calmness has spread through me.  It comes from a place I don't recognize yet.  My meditations have changed somewhat.   My approach appears to me to be less needful and my life force less scattered.

I will continue to observe with awareness and curiosity.  Something strong  is stirring inside of me that I haven't felt before.  It is  subtle but burgeoning.  Gentle yet stabilizing.


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

When Situations Become Personal Issues

I have been confronted with yet another  revelation about my inner workings.  A situation will come up and frequently I will internalize it and make this a personal issue.  Complete with the emotional reactions, dragging old past issues to connect with it.

My "Inner Guidance"  brought this to my attention a couple of days ago and it was a real eye opener.  As I stated in a previous post, I have been focusing on clearing and cleansing my energy centers.  And of course, strengthening my aura.  This internal and usually unnoticed processed came into my view.

The inclination to do this varies.  I have not yet decisively discovered what makes me more susceptible emotionally to this pattern of making the stimuli of a situation or event into a personal painful issue.   I also became aware that when I extricate my energy from one situation I allowed to become a personal issue,  another one takes its place.

I often wonder if it has to do with the tides of the tattvic tides, my physical body chemistry, a cycle of hormonal chaos, a necessary task as this life span cycles close to lessons unlearned from another life span?
Is it just part of the human condition?  It doesn't matter because no matter what is the cause I no longer wish to incarcerate myself into this condition.

I am mindfully attempting to observe at what point a situation becomes a personal issue.  I have had at least three different situations that presented themselves to my life this week.  I am sure there were more but these are the ones that I was mindfully aware that I was making a personal issue about a situation.

The one that I am working through today.  My husband to be has a truck that he has been struggling with for a couple of years.  He has a large loan and he needs the truck for work.  The electrical issues are overwhelming and he has spent a lot of money trying to repair.  It is acting up again.  At some point my ability to be attentive to his anxiety over this problem began to soak into me.  It became personal and I began to emote about it.  To the point it took over my entire evening.  The futility and helplessness that accompanies an issue so big..or appears so big.

Now...I am reviewing the machinations that occurred to cause me to make this a painful personal issue.  It causes a great emotional upheaval and I simply cannot think clearly.

Once again, awareness and acknowledgement is assisting me to see myself and how I deal with life in a more truthful and honest way.  It's not pretty but it's real and I can go from there.  The amazing thing is just knowing that I am aware of what I am doing is easing the discomfort of this process.  I am becoming more curious than anxious.